I am actually ok
First of all, let me just say that I still cannot assess blogspot in China, which means that when you post comments, I cannot reply, coz I can't even read my own site!!!! So please pardon me, it's not coz I am unfriendly or too busy or what. I am never too busy to read my friends' blogs, or reply...if only I could read them!!!!
So anyway, how am I? I am ok.
I am actually ok. Not like ecstastic...but I think the 2-week trip to Beijing really helped. Oh yes, I was in Beijing for 2 weeks covering some Communist Party meeting. But more on that later...maybe.
Anyway, I am slowing finding my own groove in this mad city of 17.8 million people. I think the idea is just to pace myself and not feel like I have to do everything and see everything and meet everyone immediately. When I feel tired, I go home. When I feel like reading a book at home, I read a book at home, even when there are like three parties to which yours truly have been invited.
So the idea is just learning to say no....simple right?
The stress over the past couple of months has also meant that the boyfriend and I have been fighting a lot...yes, we've been fighting those big fights that I don't think we would fight, so that has shaken me up quite a bit. I don't think anything fundamental has changed...if you look at the facts, but somehow, everything becomes a bit psycho when it involves a long-distance relationship. (okok, I'm the one who goes psycho.)
So what do we do? We hang on, we keep at it, and we hope for the best...I'm not just talking about my circumstances. I'm talking about life in general.
And when it becomes too hard or not worth it, you let go.
That's the key to happiness.
So anyway, how am I? I am ok.
I am actually ok. Not like ecstastic...but I think the 2-week trip to Beijing really helped. Oh yes, I was in Beijing for 2 weeks covering some Communist Party meeting. But more on that later...maybe.
Anyway, I am slowing finding my own groove in this mad city of 17.8 million people. I think the idea is just to pace myself and not feel like I have to do everything and see everything and meet everyone immediately. When I feel tired, I go home. When I feel like reading a book at home, I read a book at home, even when there are like three parties to which yours truly have been invited.
So the idea is just learning to say no....simple right?
The stress over the past couple of months has also meant that the boyfriend and I have been fighting a lot...yes, we've been fighting those big fights that I don't think we would fight, so that has shaken me up quite a bit. I don't think anything fundamental has changed...if you look at the facts, but somehow, everything becomes a bit psycho when it involves a long-distance relationship. (okok, I'm the one who goes psycho.)
So what do we do? We hang on, we keep at it, and we hope for the best...I'm not just talking about my circumstances. I'm talking about life in general.
And when it becomes too hard or not worth it, you let go.
That's the key to happiness.
posted by Jean.Chua at 11:34 AM
3 Comments:
Aw, jeanie. I was betting on the relationship to succeed, for more happiness around the world =)
Wowow jeanie, gotta fight and don't give up.
When you have to fight for it, then there's something wrong with it, no??
I don't if this comment is overdue - I think if its worth it, you fight for it. There's nothing wrong with fighting for it.
If you have to work very hard to make it work all the time, then there's something wrong. But if you have to work on it/ fight for it during rough patches, then why not.
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