Wednesday, March 29, 2006

It's spring!!!

Listening to: Stefanie Sun's A Perfect Day

It's spring!!!!

Yes, we're finally out of that sucky, blowy four months of the year when it's so cold you feel it in your bones despite wearing warmers and jeans and gloves and a beanie and you're so wrapped up you can't feel your own body.

Did I mention I hate winter? Gimme 40 degrees any day, man! Dammit!

Anyway, yes it's a glorious glorious spring morning and I am happy. I've got the sun beating down on the balcony floor, I can finally open the fucking windows and I am singing along Stefanie Sun who's on the stereo.

This is me. I know it.

Friday, March 24, 2006

What's which?

When is stopping giving up and when is it knowing it's not worth it?

Thursday, March 16, 2006

I am actually ok

First of all, let me just say that I still cannot assess blogspot in China, which means that when you post comments, I cannot reply, coz I can't even read my own site!!!! So please pardon me, it's not coz I am unfriendly or too busy or what. I am never too busy to read my friends' blogs, or reply...if only I could read them!!!!

So anyway, how am I? I am ok.

I am actually ok. Not like ecstastic...but I think the 2-week trip to Beijing really helped. Oh yes, I was in Beijing for 2 weeks covering some Communist Party meeting. But more on that later...maybe.

Anyway, I am slowing finding my own groove in this mad city of 17.8 million people. I think the idea is just to pace myself and not feel like I have to do everything and see everything and meet everyone immediately. When I feel tired, I go home. When I feel like reading a book at home, I read a book at home, even when there are like three parties to which yours truly have been invited.

So the idea is just learning to say no....simple right?

The stress over the past couple of months has also meant that the boyfriend and I have been fighting a lot...yes, we've been fighting those big fights that I don't think we would fight, so that has shaken me up quite a bit. I don't think anything fundamental has changed...if you look at the facts, but somehow, everything becomes a bit psycho when it involves a long-distance relationship. (okok, I'm the one who goes psycho.)

So what do we do? We hang on, we keep at it, and we hope for the best...I'm not just talking about my circumstances. I'm talking about life in general.

And when it becomes too hard or not worth it, you let go.

That's the key to happiness.

Friday, March 10, 2006

I am back, folks

There are two reasons I have been away.

Actually, it hasn't been that long, has it?

One is I can't access blogspot in China and another is I haven't really been feeling the best. Work is not great and I miss my boyfriend. So all in all, life hasn't been going according to plan.

So now, I am thinking of going home.