Disappointment?

Jean, you're looking for a Best Friend

There are many different ways to look at relationships, but for you, finding a best friend, the one person you share everything with, is the most important. Some people focus more on the romantic image of a soul mate to last the span of time, but you probably prefer the reality of making the most of every moment of every day. And who better to live those moments with than someone who's true blue through and through?

The ideal match for you is probably someone who can anticipate the next word out of your mouth and who laughs at the punch line before you even tell it. Chances are it's important to you that they'd expand your circle of friends, introduce you to new places, faces, and experiences, too. Whether this relationship is here for the short- or the long- term, you're a take-it-as-it-comes kind of person, with few expectations or fairytales to live up to. You'd take your constant companion and trusted secret-keeper over a fairy princess or Prince Charming, any day. Whether you realize it or not, there's someone out there who feels the same way about you. Like you, that someone is looking for the one person to be their best friend — both in the bedroom and out.

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It doesn't matter how many times I've done it.

Each time I've had to do it, I've felt bad. And this time, it was no different.

Occasionally, I blame myself for letting the other person feel the way he does. I should have stopped it when I could...or maybe I shouldn't have gone out with him at all. But I hate to be presumptous, so I say "nah, he just wants to hang out", and I don't go about thinking that guys want me. So it happens...again.

sigh